Another Day, Another Drama

So.. it s been a few days, eh ??

It has been LITERALLY the BUSIEST week ever. Assignments due all at once, debates etc etc.. but oh well Im looking foward to my 3 weeks @ The Children's ...gonnna be sooo fun !! Free Pediatric Pharmacopeia .. wohooo !!

Celebrated the dawn of a long weeked with my regular crew. aka Sam/Wen Li.. We discovered a beautiful little bar on Hardware Lane.. golden monkey.. awesome deco, and atmosphere but it sure does burst your budget. Nevertheless.. we went there for SOCIALISING... and guys.. we did socialise right ?? hehheheheh ..
The night continued one along of the Hardware's finest cafes VONS.. tiramisu.. oooo yummy.. steak.. even more yummier.. oh man I wish my family back home can enjoy this life that I have created for myself. I bet dad n mum would love to dine in these sorts of places. I truly can't wait to take my dad bar hoping.. and my mum restaurant hoping :).. good daughter or WHAT !!

Family is so important. I have not shared so many things with my family in a very long time. I feel in a certain way, they have failed to recognize me. In their eyes, im still the same 19 year old that left home. Unfortunately, that is not true. I have evolved so greatly in the past 4 years ( in a good way tht is :P ) I cant wait to share my life and experiences with them. I believe at the end of the day immediate family is what that counts. I come from and extremely close knit family... but guess what ??? A crack is streaking right up the middle. Oceans are separating us.. how much can internet or skype substitute for real life conversations.. Before I knew it, outsiders are trying to curb into our den and break us apart. I can already sense that happening... do I care ?
In a way.. yeah. I am defensive over my cousins as I love them a lot and will love to remain close to them. However, in reality that does not happen, eh.. They would spread their wings and fly..
I never was close to relatives who were older than me. Maybe the gap is bridging now, but then again people have their own lives.

Is it bad to be smart ??? another issue that seems to be bugging my mind over the last few days. When I was in school the more A's you scored, the more friends you sorta had. You are the cool person. But as you get older, people classify you as a N.E.R.D.. if you still keep up with the A's. Well this is in my mind is UTTTER BULLSHIT.. I realised that in order to look cool with the msian society of youngsters, you have to :
1. Club on weekends
2. Be adequately prep'ed with sufficient cash ( from FAMA'S indisposable cash petite)
3. Have popular friends or soon to be "wannabe's"
4. High alcohol tolerance
5. A flashy car wouldn't hurt(obviously this would be provided by FAMA again).. etc etc etc..

Look at it.. just take one good hard look at the list. Ok so where would it take you in life ? In your 20-30's you'd be riding with fun if you're safe on all 5 counts. When you're 30 plus.. does any of that matter anymore ?? It's how much ur cashing in at the end of the month. No FAMA anymore. And that is when the rise of the N.E.R.D.S will began...
remember N.E.R.D.S are like caterpillars. Once they hit they're target they become gorgeously, untouchable butterflies.
Imagine you bump into an A class nerd when you're 37.. He/she is looking fab. An LV bag perhaps.. Gucci shoes.. DKNY dress.. her appearance it self is worth a million bucks. She steps out from a BMW 7 series.. smiles to you and go... hey !! long time no see..what are you up too??
And. all you can say is.. mmm I ve landed with an oh so regular job.. ran out on FAMA cash.. married with 3 kids and looking oh so drained..
Now folks who is having the last laugh :)

I have met many shallow minded people who has passed remarks such as " Oh, you're in Monash.. haha that is where the nerds go. or you still get HD's .. you must be studying 24/7"
All this are just talks of the insecure.. the joke around the ur in monash , u must be a nerd is.. that dude, did not even complete his degree in one go. Repeated and failed many times. Just because he is drinking every weekend and living the "So call cool lifestyle" does not give him the right to even make that comment to anyone.

Well for now, I rather be getting my HD's .. having my usual nights out with my regular crew which i enjoy very much, decent with sense conversations and waiting.. just waiting for the day when I can BITCH SLAP.. all the loosers right to their faces.. Oh, the day will come. I can smell the aroma of it already in the air.

We'll see who has the last laugh then ..WAKAKKAKKA !!

Many thanks is in lieu overdue..

This post is dedicated to all my wonderful friends who celebrated my 22nd with me. Im sorry for not writting up in advance, but as you have presumed my mind was full of "dysfunctional issues"

It's clearing up and Im coming to my senses...

Thanks guys for picking stuff of my list..

Im dancing to tunes with the RED HOT ipod..
I absolutely fell in love with my I LOVE MELB TEE..
Im deeply touched by PS: I love you
I look gorgeous in the necklace..
I smell oh so extremely seductive in Baby Doll :P
I indulged in the mixture of alcohol + chocolates.. what could be better

last but not least... Im looking foward to that holiday by the beach & the new laptop.. A trip down to Phuket Thanks Mum n Dad.. cant wait to c u guys in just .. just 2 months.. for a legen.. wait for it.. DARY TIME .. !!! WAKAKAAA.

All in all.. I love you guys heaps..

Thanks..

How To Be Friends With Your Ex

To be or not To be

Not that Im even trying.. but i did find this piece however. Written extremly well with a tinge of with and humor from my fav blogger.. Samantha Brett of the Sydney Morning Herald Blogs..

This is what she think of "THE EX ISSUE"

"The problem with romance is that it doesn't always deliver the goods," the latest issue of Time magazine says. And boy, don't we know it! Break-ups, make-ups, game-playing, cheating, lying, clandestine sex (and video tapes to prove it) have all aided in giving modern love, sex and relationships one mighty bad wrap.

Add to that the ubiquitous trend of so-called new serial monogamy in which "till death do us part" has been replaced by "till someone better comes along" and it's easy to see why most of us have experienced the wrath of a gut-wrenching break-up that propels us onto our emotional death-bed ...

The trouble is that all the hurt, tears and pain don't stop there either. Imagine that, after a few days, (or months if it's really that bad), you finally manage to get off your tear-sodden sofa for a night out with your mates, only to spot your ex in the corner of the pub ensconced in a passionate embrace with their new fitter, blonder, better-looking date, barely even taking a break from their tonsil-hockey to notice your new haircut!

Yep, suffice it to say that "break-ups hurt like a motherf------", as Greg Behrendt, author of It's Called a Breakup Because it's Broken, muses in his bestselling no-nonsense break-up guide. And thank goodness for that because it seems 'tis the season of exes.

It's no wonder we can't get over them either considering that, in the age of technological advancements, a lazy nip online can give you more ex-information than you ever bargained for.

Add to that all the Facebook poking (only to discover compromising pics of your ex and their new flame and lovey-dovey messages on their Wall), Google-stalking, driving past their place at midnight (by a friend of mine who shall remain nameless) and it's not difficult to see why our exes are infiltrating our lives more than ever before.

Should you get your ex back?

"Everyone wants what they can't have," is a cliche that I'd like to believe is complete and utter bollocks. Unfortunately it's been proven time and time again (especially on this blog) that it's not such a batty statement after all. Especially when it comes to love.

When we've got it in the palm of our sweaty hands, we can take it for granted, toss it to one side when something more exciting comes our way and discard it like last night's dinner when we feel we'd like to "find ourselves" without a partner (and all their irritating quirks) standing in our way.

But suddenly we find ourselves desperately wanting them back. We can't sleep, eat or believe we'll live without knowing that we've done everything in our power to win them back. The trouble with it all is that getting back an ex is no easy feat. In fact, if they've moved on or you've broken their heart, it's near damn impossible.

The solution? Reader Scorpio has come up with something that's either the most darn romantic I've ever heard of, or the most hopeless. Either way, his story is this:

"Until very recently I had been going out with a lovely girl for roughly five months. It hadn't been easy as she had just came out of a really destructive relationship that ended in divorce and I had trust/confidence issues due to a past relationship which lapsed into irrelevancy. There was also the minuscule issue of age and a difference in culture. Our insecurities usually collided and it created a lot of arguments; most of which I actively and regretfully instigated.

"Anyway she broke up with me. It is strange as you don't acknowledge how unprepared you are to face the world when someone you truly respect rescinds their love for you.

"I wrote her a letter as the hurt was too intense to talk about with her directly. In the letter I displayed a time, date and location to meet me at if she wanted to give things another go. What made the letter so unusual was that the above arrangement is set almost six months from now. So I have given her the option - whether she is inspired by my change as a person or even remembers the details is really up to her. There is also the situation where she doesn't want to attend as she may just want to start a new page or could even find herself in a new relationship.

"It is an interesting concept that I want to give a try. Even if I find myself the only one who manages to show on the day, I can at least walk away with my head held high knowing I followed my heart.

"I just wish we had both met at different times in our lives as the connection and prospect of having a great relationship was, and still very much is, there. Provided that we both go away and do what is needed to be better partners... Is there potential for reuniting? Or should I hang up the boots and move on?"

and Karma kicks us right back in the ass..

OH MY GOD !! ..and i mean tht literally..

Jesse Spencer and he's bloody hot shot real life dr brother just walked through the doors of my office.

I can't believe... im shocked.. beyond words.. HE IS SO BLOODY CUTE & SAID HI.. .. TO ME !

I just stood there in awe staring at his defined muscular body, baby cute face, blue eyes while listening to his brother ramble on about not having an appropriate prescriber no. How nice.. a family that has a real life doctor.. oh wait.. 3 real live docs and a fake one :)..

Well there you go.. i said bye to one yday.. and guess who says Hi to me today ?? Is it karma or what...

Well whtever it is ..Im winning the breakup.. didn't I tell you to hold on 12 hours ago ! I don't backdown easily...
Wohoo !! steph's on fire, baby :)

At work : 2.10 pm..

Made slight progression- No hp to work. No lunch time calls. Im tempted to, but im resisting.

Its good to be at work. I feel empowered, confident and loved.

Spoke to a great person today, whom I look up to greatly.. a highly sucessful individual. He was very encouraging and optimistic.

I gathered, If i met a great individual every day, or heard a great story, Im gonna dwell on that. Reflect each night to the words of wisdom and encouragement that these ppl have showered upon me. Why dwell in an individual who can't even spell the word embarrassment adequately???

Alright enought dwelling.. back to recall statistics.. or whtever that means !

So you think your winning the break up.. well HOLD ON !!

Okay.. i get the deal here dude... u found a chic and moved on with your life.. I'm not in it so why should i care or be concern.. EXACTLY .. why should i care ??

Now at 11.56 am ( bucket load of tears, ice cream and a piece of yelling from my friend) I have decided to MOVE ON.. yes I'm stating it in writting boldly.. im MOVING ON!

Days of melancholy are gonna disappear before my very eyes.
Days of sadness are gonna melt away.
Days of endless tears are drying up.
Days of stress are evaporating..

What i see..

Sunshine on the horizon..
A full moon by the beach...
A fantastic career...
A circle of awesome friends..
And maybe.. just maybe.. I'll score with a way HOOOOTEEERRRR guy than you ever was.

This is the real deal and Im gonna do it. No matter how hard it is... its now or never. Walk out now before you wollow all the pieces of me.

I may be broken, in shambles, but I'll pick my trail up. I 'll pick every piece and mend it back on my own. Would not leave a trace of our very controversial past behind. Its OBSOLETE..

Tomorrow is the dawn of a new era... the rebirth of Steph.. the " I'm finally out of this severely dysfunctional rship".. and yes, im gonna have to hate you now for sometime, but in the long run, i wish you all the best and every bit of happiness in your life.

For now its *DELETE. BLOCK.*---I'm outta here !

ps : My blog may sound depressing.. sad.. but its gonna be a diary of my progression towards a new life and happiness. If any of you guys can hear the sound of genuine happiness piercing from my words.. let me know !

Oversaying it... Undersaying it !

As you can tell, someone or something has triggered the annoyance button within me.. its days like this that I feel like running to the ocean and screaming my head off. Its horrible when people piss you off and yet feel no remorse for their mistake.

I LOVE YOU... what the hell does that word mean ? do you know.. well i think half the world doesn't seem to grasp the concept that this is a fucking serious word.. it s not a mere word that you just blurt out as and when you like..
Acc to wikipedia I LOVE YOU means : a number of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection or profound oneness. ...

Strong affection of profound oneness.. how much more clear must it be made. People these days just rant the word out for fun. for eg : Honey, Im going to the grocery, would u like anything ??? Ok bye.. i love you .. mUah ".. or " Sweetie, Im going to the bar with friends, I love you .. bye "
dOES your love one.. really need to be reassured every 10 sec that you love him/her.. The answer is NOOOOOO ..

Saying I love in this manner is just the tip of the iceberg that contributes to my annoyance of society. Saying I love you .. to merely play with a girl/guy.. just to dump him/her in the next few months is the ultimate worse. You can play.. cheat.. flirt.. whatever you call it.. just DON'T SAY I FUCKING LOVE YOU...until ur bloody sure you do.

How many of us, see our parents saying I love you every 10 seconds of the day. Honestly, I have not seen that, yet i believe my parents know that their spouse loves them more than anything in the world.. and guess what, those marriages are still going 25 years down the track. While couples who so openly say I love you about 55 times a day..in 4 years you see them screaming and saying I hate you just as much in front of a judge. Tht's the irony of all this shit.. young farts don't seem to give 2 hoods about the word and what it means. As long as by saying it , they get to enjoy some form of benefit ( getting laid 100% of the time).. they'll say it.. DAMN..stop.. killing the meaning of the word.. stop it now before it's too late to save its profound oneness for our future generations .

Ok .. so there goes my rant about oversaying I love you... now there is a severe shortage of the word " SORRY " in today's world. According to UN, in the next 10 years to come, it may even disappear the face of the earth .. so rationing has began...Maybe the first thing we should teach our kids is to say " sorry WITH MEANING " before learning how to say mama , dada.. gugu.. gaga.
Civilians to politicians to celebrities to royalties all stay away from the word SORRY..

People make mistakes on a daily basis, yet remorsitude is never part of the mistake making process.. it s more like " mm yeah i made a mistake.. wont do it again. cheers mate" .. I mean seriously,. what the hell is that ?? Say sorry.. look into that person's eyes.. cry if you need too.. just show them some bloody remorse. Humans have this big fat ego that prevents them from saying sorry.. when they do , they feel helpless and low. They are not dominant nor powerful. Ppl say I LOVE YOU .. so easily coz they obtain some benefit out of that.. however, with sorry you don't. Most of the time, ppl cant be bothered to save their rships, hence just move right along to the next one.. SORRY IS EVADED YET AGAIN ! ..

So there it is.. oversaying.. undersaying.. dude where is the fucking balance ???

Oi.. Oi.. Oi

aaaaa... been so long since i last shared my deep, intellectual thoughts with the rest of the world.

I've had a pretty crazy 2 weeks. Took a trip to the Gold Coast ( trust me it is literally Gold i.e sunny and sandy :) I had a ball.. Surfer's was definetely the best beach I've been to date. Splashing in the crystal blue water with my mates was just simply awesome. What i realise was , the beach was soo pack, it IS a world top 10 beach.. but yet.. it s so clean.Not a plastic or paper in sight. If you compare that to the beaches in Msia, ( none which are world class, neither pack) yet they are soo flithy, perpetually disgusting. You have to claim temporary insanity to get into the waters of PD. A close aquaintance of mine who is a pilot, did mention to me once, then when you fly across PD.. you can LITERALLY see all the human waste floating in the sea... EEUUUUU ( tht's enough to put me of PD for the rest of my life)

So yeah.. besides the awesome beaches, we relived our childhood by paying a visit to movie world and wet n wild.. oh man those water slide rides was ****ing awesome !! TORNADO RULZZZ !!!!! i had such a blast, can't even describe it

Brissy was alright but the city gave me a shit of a time.. almost missed my flight due to their horribly disorganised transportation system. It reminded me too much of KL esp in the sense of pollution and disorganisation.. well at least I've eliminated one city to live in ( c that hardly comes by.. so thumbs up for brissy.. I don't ever wanna live there )

oi.. oi.. oi.. I went to the best restaurant the other day.. thanks to my dear Sam ( im sorry dude.. i didnt know the kitchen at EBC closes at 9 ). Anyway .. it was a little german hideout in the city. 3 words for it :

Exquisite

Delicious

Fun

I still don't know what's it s called.. some long complicated german name but the atmosphere was awesome.. the live band and singing OI.. OI .. OI and dancing made my night. Oh well actually that got my night started.. right Sam ??
Our drinking session which I only planned to go on MILD mode .. turned out quite the opposite.
Laughing while downing down pints of Hoegarden and Pinot Noir.. definetely got me into the jiggy mood. AHHH thanks for dancing with me yeah.. i know drinking is your forte, but it s fun right hehehhe.. ps : he's probably gonna kill me the next time around :P
It was indeed one of the best nights i had in ages.. sometimes it's jst so great to hang out with a good friend who can TALK ... HOLD DECENT CONVERSATIONS.. DRINK and of course.. BRING ME HOME SAFELY ..

alright .. tht prolly sums up my last 2 weeks.. now i shall hit the books.. *tsk tsk *