Tuesday 17 November 2009

The beginning of a new life

The Purpose Driven Life

It took one person to knock some solid sense in me and get me thinking about the bigger picture in life.

Today , 17-NOV-2009.. I signing a covenant and am going to embark on a 40 day journey with God to find my purpose in life.

As I look back at my life and what my dreams and aspirations were, it is filled with so much ambitions. I place so much emphasis on success. I thought that would be enough to feed my soul, but yet, I still feel hungry. I have yet to be satisfied despite all my success. My need for something more in life has left me incredibly frustrated.

Hence, my decision to change and opt for the truth. I have taken God's graces for granted, and its time .. just about time for me to start appreciating Him.

So today, I have learnt, its not all about me... and how do I feel about it ? Scared.. life is not about me.. am I able to handle it when I use to allow it to revolve around me. Well I shall take up the challenge and learn to focus on the bigger things in life. The first sentence itself has alerted me to the massive problem in my life.. self -centeredness. I am willing and praying hard for God to walk this journey with me and help me discover my purpose in life.

"Everything begins in Him and shall find its purpose in Him"

Monday 16 November 2009

The end of an era

It took me 5 solid years to get to where I am today. I dreamt about this day where I can walk proudly, be confident of my knowledge, skills and abilities and it has finally arrived..

I shall step into the next phase of my life with mixed emotions. The estatic feeling has passed, and now reality has sunk in. Life will never really be the same again. The responsibilities just increase in tens of folds..

Defining true happiness no longer means passing exams.. as my parents say, " We don't expect less from you" , and I don't expect less from myself.. there has to be something more.. something more meaningful..

I have met many people along the way which has contributed greatly to my life experience.Some intrigue me, so make fantastic friends, some will just be existence in my life. But no matter what and who they are, I am grateful for meeting each and every person that has crossed paths with me.

Looking back at who I was 5 years ago, and who I am now.. sure my life seemed so much simpler 5 years back, and maybe I have grown to be complicated, but hey... complication is the essence of life. If there is no complications, there is no reward for acheiving anything.

As a friend said to me, "We are complicated human beings, with complicated minds.. you just have to embrace that and stand firm on your grounds.. Fill the gaps in your life with God's presence and love yourself above all".

As this year draws to an end.. all I hope to do is toast to a new year ahead of me with the people I love and care.