Sometimes i just sit back and wonder how different my life would be if I had chosen a different path. What if I never came to Australia ? What if i walked down the finance line.. or the medical line ?? What if I was artistic..but yet, this is the path I took. I wouldn't say it was something I planned.. hell no, i did not know what a pharmacist was, let alone plan to be one !!!

As the wrath of my internship comes to an end, I wonder if I am truly happy or satisfied. Without a doubt, this has been an incredible journey. Five years.. that's half a decade of half work dedicated to pharmacy. Everything in my life has been about pharmacy..

Nevertheless, i yearn for so much more.. what if this is just the tip of the ice berg to greater things. Am I capable of it ?? Somedays I wish i had decided to be a dr much earlier.. and on others, I think I would be a better doctor now that I have matured. Not so much in terms of the knowledge, but maturity. Part of becoming a good doctor means, being mature, able to take responsibility and deal with people from all walks of life. Compassion is something that comes with age too..

As a human being, I believe I would be completely satisfied in life, if I am able to save a life.. If i am able to be 100% sure that I can save a life. I hate being an adjunct to a life saving process. But, what must I give up to acheive that personal satisfaction ?? Is it worth it ? Will my future kids suffer the wrath of my selfish desires to push myself to the absolute limit ??

Some people are followers, some people are born leaders.. some prefer to stay in their comfort zone and some thrive on challenge.. I am one for the latter..

So.. what the heck do I do now ??? Where does life take me ??