The fucked up week gone by...

What a week this has been... brutality at its peak. Its been a while since Ive felt inadequate. Well, guess everyone has their day .

The year gone by so far has been so challenging. Today, as I sit here, I just cant wait for it to be all over. For me to actually make decisions on my own and to stop being an intern. Im so tired. Physically and emotionally. Dealing with the study and work is hard enough, but the people is all another story. There has been so many obstacles that I had to face.

Glad to get away from it all next week. Just 5 days of peace and quiet. I shall fly away and leave all my worries here in this land that I am beginning to despise more and more. When people ask me what are my fondest memories of Melbourne, there really isn't anything significant. Might have gained my degree here, but even that moment wasnt as delightful as how it should have been.

I miss Asia so much. I miss being around ppl i genuinely care about. I miss being in love with what I do. I dont know if a new job would change things, or a new man, but I need some form of change. I just need to get out of this rut and do something I enjoy at a pace I am comfortable with.

All i can do right now is stop wishing for my life to be at certain phases and just face the bull shit crap. Oh well, its just another 2 months ( hopefuly) and then Fuck it... im off !!