"Baby you're all that I want, when your lying here in my arms
I find it hard to believe that we're in heaven" Bryan Adams

Its been months that Ive known you. Though never been in the same room ever, yet there is this immense connection between us. You are indeed my dream man in every possible way, my knight in shining armour. Its such a shame that we are thousand miles apart. Sometimes i feel like just taking a chance, flying over to where you are. It doesnt matter if things do not work out the way I expect it to be, but just a day , with my dream guy would be great.

I hope someday, we would be able to meet. For now, your voice, that cute, sexy French accent is all I can get. ... Oh boy, where else would I find a hot french-viet pharmacist with a tinge of british in him???

Perfecto !!

The fucked up week gone by...

What a week this has been... brutality at its peak. Its been a while since Ive felt inadequate. Well, guess everyone has their day .

The year gone by so far has been so challenging. Today, as I sit here, I just cant wait for it to be all over. For me to actually make decisions on my own and to stop being an intern. Im so tired. Physically and emotionally. Dealing with the study and work is hard enough, but the people is all another story. There has been so many obstacles that I had to face.

Glad to get away from it all next week. Just 5 days of peace and quiet. I shall fly away and leave all my worries here in this land that I am beginning to despise more and more. When people ask me what are my fondest memories of Melbourne, there really isn't anything significant. Might have gained my degree here, but even that moment wasnt as delightful as how it should have been.

I miss Asia so much. I miss being around ppl i genuinely care about. I miss being in love with what I do. I dont know if a new job would change things, or a new man, but I need some form of change. I just need to get out of this rut and do something I enjoy at a pace I am comfortable with.

All i can do right now is stop wishing for my life to be at certain phases and just face the bull shit crap. Oh well, its just another 2 months ( hopefuly) and then Fuck it... im off !!

The month gone by....

Wow.. its been a month since Ive almost blogged. This is scary as it means I havent cracked up much study... oooh shit !!

Guessing I've got to qurantine myself over the next 2 months. Being a fully qualified pharmacist is all I can think . Wouldnt want to fail and go through an extra 3 months of crap. Just so over being an intern.

Indeed the future seems to exciting..the ability to make your own decisions without consulting someone all the time is what I truly long for.

I have been thinking so much about where and what I want to do after this. I guess I sorta know what type of pharmacist I will be, but as each day goes by, I am loving my job more and more. Put me in community and Im loving it or even in hospital. A combo job of hosp/comm/industry would be my ideal week. Whether or not that is possible Im not sure. Next stop is getting the Masters out of the way. I ve been thinking of a couple of different options in terms of futher education. Id love to pursue something in Pharmacy, but also do another unconventional masters.. maybe Intl Health/Public Health/MBA... and this I hope to do in Europe or something

Gosh, all this possibilities are so exciting. The fact that I can just walk out of Melbourne tmrw itself and get a job in Asia or go home to Msia for a couple of months is excuberating.

One thing for sure, I have realised that I am not ready to settle in life. I am not ready to call any place my home or to commit to anything big and scary. Love being young, wild , free and of course successfull... nothing in life can be black while and decided. You can take control of situations, but not plan every situation.

Looking fwd to a great 2010 ( though its about 4 months away) ..and oooh yeah a BIG ROZARIO clan reunion.... Yippie!!!

xoxo