Accidents are a mishap; especially one causing injury or death
Most are visible. You see 2 cars collide, blood splashed everywhere, excruciating pain.
But those are not the only kinds.. there is another, which is much more painful, bloodier and deeper than any other. I belive I am such an accident.
I walk into dangerous grounds... though i understand the risk. I get hit repeatedly but yet, I get up and pull my mangled body into yet another accident. Why ? What is it about me that draws me to walk into my very own crash ?
You don't have to be highly intelligent to make big mistakes in matters of the heart. Just 3 weeks ago, I wrote about how happy I was. At that point, that is how I felt.. little did I know that there is a possibility that 3 weeks down the track, I would be proclaiming myself to be a walking accident.
Is this really me ? Surely not. I am so confused about what and who I am. Every other person I have met wants me to be this other girl that I am not.
While processing a script today, a lady, stopped me, looked me in the eye and told me somethings that I never wanted to hear but probably needed too. It's so strange how these things happen.
The furthest I am going to see into the future starting from today, is what breakfast I shall have tmrw morning. Everything else is relative. There is no point planning.. There is no point in me willing to give up everything just to be with someone who would not even appreciate the sacrifices I would have to make. There is just no point.
Till I figure myself out and who Steph really is... i shall let time dwindle pass me.
Most are visible. You see 2 cars collide, blood splashed everywhere, excruciating pain.
But those are not the only kinds.. there is another, which is much more painful, bloodier and deeper than any other. I belive I am such an accident.
I walk into dangerous grounds... though i understand the risk. I get hit repeatedly but yet, I get up and pull my mangled body into yet another accident. Why ? What is it about me that draws me to walk into my very own crash ?
You don't have to be highly intelligent to make big mistakes in matters of the heart. Just 3 weeks ago, I wrote about how happy I was. At that point, that is how I felt.. little did I know that there is a possibility that 3 weeks down the track, I would be proclaiming myself to be a walking accident.
Is this really me ? Surely not. I am so confused about what and who I am. Every other person I have met wants me to be this other girl that I am not.
While processing a script today, a lady, stopped me, looked me in the eye and told me somethings that I never wanted to hear but probably needed too. It's so strange how these things happen.
The furthest I am going to see into the future starting from today, is what breakfast I shall have tmrw morning. Everything else is relative. There is no point planning.. There is no point in me willing to give up everything just to be with someone who would not even appreciate the sacrifices I would have to make. There is just no point.
Till I figure myself out and who Steph really is... i shall let time dwindle pass me.
1 comment:
hey steph...how r u doing? from your blog u sound kinda different..juz give me a buzz if you need anyone to talk to ya...take good care of urself! miss ya..
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