And the saga continues..

It's 3am..

I can't sleep.

I'm so disturbed. I vowed never to fall into this trap again, but yet i did.
Why do I always fall for the unavailable ?
Why doesn't my heart open to the available folk?
Where do I misread the signs?

Sure you say you feel the same. But.. there is always a but..
If it's not time, its space that comes in between.

Life is so complicated. Everything I desire deems to be out of my reach.
Yes, I knew it be a "mission impossible", but somewhere in my perky heart, I thought there would be a chance.

But I know it's all going to be good. It's not like there is true love. There's only disappointment, and a slightly bumped up heart.

On the happier note, I did find myself a good friend. Maybe Mr. X is right afterall.
What good can come out of a 2 months a year relationship?

I should have known better.
Oh well, only time will tell. I guess I am going to CHECK OUT from the whole dating scenario for a looong looong time.
It's too hard.

I hope you find yourself that "ideal girl" you talk about. I wish you all the love in the world, and from here on we'll be friends.. and only friends..

Signing of with a mellow heart...