The Superwoman... yes I am :)

There is superman, batman, spiderman .. all man. Well get ready men ... it's time for the women to clinch the super title for once.

Women need not wear tight underwear outside their clothes to demonstrate their heroic strength. Neither do we need to fly places to solve crimes or climb unimaginable heights to save the city. All we need is our confidence, and inner strength.

Women wear a big red "S" on their chest.

In my life, I am indeed trying to find that superwoman in me. Many things have happened in my life which has moulded me into becoming that superwoman . Now more than ever, I feel confident bout myself, my decisions and my future.

Living alone and moving out of home has been the best thing I have done for myself. I know it seems crazy to come to that assumption, but I am a better woman for it. The strength that I have gained emotionally is so great, no amount of experience in Malaysia would be able to compensate for it. Independence and sense of responsibility has taken on a deeper meaning in my life.

A tough relationship , with many ups and downs did add to the rich experience and made me all the more mature than what I ever imagined I could be. Making new friends and leaving old ones were just as tough .

As I take my final walk as a student, as a dependent of my parents, I can only look back with a smile for all the experiences that I have gained. All the misery, tears, laughter and joy has given me a sense of confidence to a point where I can say " Yes.. I am going to be alright in life". This should not be confused with arrogance, but just confidence that even If i fail or go through anymore downs, I know I 'll be able to whisk out it.

I believe I am still looking to find the better part in me.

My only focus in life right now is getting a kick start in my career, working towards a " oh ur so hot" image , travel ..... men can hop on board for a ride but I'lll drive and stop the car whenever it suits me .. :)

Till next time ..

Here I go AGAIN !!!

So.. im back in boring ol' melb..

Its 430 am and I can't sleep. I'm feeling soo... ARGH !!!

Day 2 of me being in Melb has come and gone.. and what did I learn ???

>>>> Out of sight, out of mind !!

One day of calls and sms'es and then none.. stop... gone !!

Who is the fool in this ?? It's not like I did not see this coming. After all that was the deal... "just friends". ( Man how i hate those 2 words)

Well... I think i HAVE to sleep now.

ps : Steph is not looking fwd to rural placement... im not a country girl ok !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The times for goodbyes...

Selamat Tinggal..
Au Revoir..
Sayonara..
Cioa..
Shalom..

So long to all my friends who have indeed taken a keen interest in making my holidays as memorable as possible. If I could describe my holidays, no words could match up to it except that it was FANTASTIC X 10

Reconnecting with all my friends has been the highlight for me esp since I would not be home for a while. Thank you so much for making time out of your busy schedules to keep me entertained.

I am really gonna miss every single one. To Carina, you've actually not only given me an absolutely fantastic holiday, but also taught me a thing or two about love and men. Your're the woman!! I hope i can gain your strength someday.

Joanne, Joo Li and Intan.. my gals.. Im gonna miss you fellas so much. I'm so glad that everytime we meet, there is so much of laughter, happiness and a connection that is so damn awesome.

I shall miss Mr. X. I really would. It's sad tht things cannot materialize, but that's life eh ?? Just not meant to happen. Im glad i got to spent time with you however short it was and thanks for all the incredible times. Will be missing you too...

Last but certainly not least.. im gonna miss my family big time. Im gonan miss the laughter, and the closeness.

Till next time...

Gees.. why can't stop one ??? I have to go to bed soon.. got ba ku teh tmrw morning with Miss Carina ( official shopping and food guide for my holidays )

okok .. sigining off..

Adios :)

Just Say It.

Take all of your wasted honor.
Every little past frustration.
Take all of your so called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations.

Say what you need to say.

Walkin' like a one man army,
Fightin' with the shadows in your head.
Livin' up the same old moment
Knowin' you'd be better off instead

If you could only...Say what you need to say

Have no fear for givin' in.
Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again.

Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.
Even as the eyes are closin',
Do it with a heart wide open.

Say what you need to say

Say what you need to, Say what you need to...

Say what you need to say. don't hold it back as you may not get this chance again

And the saga continues..

It's 3am..

I can't sleep.

I'm so disturbed. I vowed never to fall into this trap again, but yet i did.
Why do I always fall for the unavailable ?
Why doesn't my heart open to the available folk?
Where do I misread the signs?

Sure you say you feel the same. But.. there is always a but..
If it's not time, its space that comes in between.

Life is so complicated. Everything I desire deems to be out of my reach.
Yes, I knew it be a "mission impossible", but somewhere in my perky heart, I thought there would be a chance.

But I know it's all going to be good. It's not like there is true love. There's only disappointment, and a slightly bumped up heart.

On the happier note, I did find myself a good friend. Maybe Mr. X is right afterall.
What good can come out of a 2 months a year relationship?

I should have known better.
Oh well, only time will tell. I guess I am going to CHECK OUT from the whole dating scenario for a looong looong time.
It's too hard.

I hope you find yourself that "ideal girl" you talk about. I wish you all the love in the world, and from here on we'll be friends.. and only friends..

Signing of with a mellow heart...

The Phuket Escapade

Hey folks.. so the phuket trip is finally over. Back to good ol msia.

I had so much fun indeed. It was a really good trip. Family orientated ( if ya know what I mean). The whole area is so touristy. Not sure if that is a good or bad thing. Price wise, it can get real expensive. For the rest, it s quite nice and westernize. I'd love to go back again, but with friends this time around to hit the night clubs and sip on the nite life down there.















Phi Phi Island was indeed breathtaking. The caves, rocks and the entire set up was just so incredibly scenic. I am pretty amaze at the Thai's and how they behave. They can be damn sweet and very very nice ppl.. but, when you don't wanna purchase stuff from them they can be plain out rude. They also practice double std's in terms of treatment to public. The whites get better treatment than asians (which is obvious since they are the one who do not haggle) .

Next stop is the thai names.. damn they crack me up. Our taxi driver was called Bum.. imagine being called bum every single day. How sad. I know i should not be laughing at ppl's name/ cultures but just can't help it la... it s toooo hilarious :)

Food wise.. well i was a little disappointed. I was hoping for hot, spicy till my face goes red type food.. but instead I got all the mild chinese type food. Not that i do not like those, I just was looking for something different. The Thai's have indeed modified their food to fit the westerners taste.. what a bummer !!

Another thing which caught my eye was the Thai women. There were heaps and heaps of white guys with an "ugly" Thai women on their arms. Im not lying but these men seem buffed, handsome looking , but the Thai women they are with are all so OH MY GOD.. !!I came up with a theory saying maybe they can't afford the hot thai women. And if your in it just for the sex.. who cares about the face.. anybody would do as long as there is action :)

Now about the eye candy. Everyone was just ooozing with sex appeal. I did a little analysis on the hotties strutting around. From my careful observations I have come up with the following ranking of absolute hotness :

1. Americans
2. French
3. Germans
4. Brits
5. Australians

Sorry to say.. but aussies are waaayyyy out. The blonde, disheveled , surfer boy look ain't that hot anymore. Americans on the other hand are just oooooozing with sex appeal. Their bodies were like WOW !! their accent is like hot hot hot and their style is incredible. (Now i wish i choose USA as my study destination)

Well tht's all for now.. I've put up some pics on FB. Hope to go to Phuket again soon with some good friends..

Signing off to lunch......