Its time to let go

Its been 23 years..
I have valued each and every advice, comment, encouragement, disapproval and approval that the both of you have given me.
But I think its time for me to spread my wings and test the waters.
Though Im already living miles and miles away from you, I still feel cluttered and constrained.
Don't put me on a guilt trip. I know my responsibilities. But I have a life to live.

I appreciate the both of you so much.
I love you both with an endless amount of love.
I thrive to make you proud and happy. But I am tired.
What about me ? What about my happiness?

I wish to whisk away to a foreign land.
Jobs would be hard. Life would be hard.
But I should be alright.
If its not a pharmacy job, I am equipped to perform so many other things
You have given me an education. I am able to survive

Let me go.
I know your fears. I understand your fears
I am not sure what my dreams are now. My priorities are changing.
Once, being a cooperate mogul may have been my dream.
Now, being a mother of 2, cheering at every soccer game and ballet dance lessons is what I long for.

If I have a choice between a 1 million dollar job and a family
I would choose the path of a family
No money , no amount of success in my career would make me happy
If I am to come home every single day to an empty house.

So please, let me go. Be happy for me if I find that one thing that makes me happy. Maybe it is my destiny. Maybe its fate.

I will always remember my roots and flock back to it. But for now, I am ready to take on greater challenges.

She is all happy :D

Wohoooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

Finally.. finally I am truly happy in a loooooongggg timeeeeee ..
and the secret to it ... u gotta make urself happy on ur own. Independece leads to happiness.

I was walking home from work today and I thought to myself.. i have absolutely nothing to worry about ( besides pre reg .. but I think i shd be able to crap my way through tht ). Work is just so bloody fantastic. I could not be happier going to work every morning. I have been so blest to find a job that I truly love and it is not a chore for me to wake up at 6 am everyday .
Though this reality will come to an end when i migrate over to RCH for my clinicals, I believe the sweet memories will provide enough stimulation to carry on with the next 6 months of the year.

I hope i do end up getting a job in the pharmaceutical industry after I complete my pre reg. Everything about the job suits me.. i love to dress up..I hate dealing with annoying customers.. I love the power it brings... i love working independently .. and of course.. the hot cooperate men who just cant be left out .

It been such a fantastic 2 months so far. I have learnt so much than I could ever imagine and performed more complicated task than I ever thought I could perform. God has been goood !!

To top it up, my french romance is still bloooming.. fresh as ever. He is so encapsulating.. I just get drowned in his wittyness. He too is one of the most metrosexual men that I have met ( he loooveesss shooesss.. thumbs up ) I cant say if it will ever work due to the distance, but I hope God has a purpose for allowing him into my life. My mum told me once before that you should always pray over relationships so that it will grow and blossom into what you hope it to be. I never bothered doing it with the rest ( which Im thankful for) ... but I find myself whispering to God to pleeeaseee make this wooork :)

In many ways Im pretty asian. Lots of my friends are asian and I talk like an asian.. Hence, i believe an asian french man who is metrosexual will definetely suit my portfolio... for now I couldnt be happier to wake up to emails from Paris...

Signing off in a gleefull moood :D

All you need is hope.

I have not been blogging for a while. Couldnt really get my thoughts and emotions straight for the past 2 weeks. I had a lot of emotions to deal with.. its all like this in Jan. I literally hate the month of Jan. The blues set in when all the holidays have come to an end... and the idea of the coming Dec is too far off.

My parents had left back to Msia and I guess i got use to living with them for the past 6 weeks. Hence the whole detachment process was a bit hard. To add to that, a previous love of mine is getting engaged to a girl he barely knows, but claims he knows everything about her.

It's times like this where I began to wonder if I am actually on the right track, right place. Sure it be so much easier if I walked away from it all and went curling back into my comfort zone, but would that be me ? Would that define who I am ? No I am not running back... I believe I am a fighter and emotions are just emotions and Im trying hard not to let it get to me..
"STAY POSITIVE" as the saying goes ..

Just when i was comin out of this gloominess and was bouncing back into my good ol regular self.. i found a little glimmmer of hope in the corner. It s such an amazing feeling to know that you're not alone and its only a matter of time before your destiny walks right into you.

For now, Im quite happy with my glimmer of hope from France. Though he is beyond my expectations of a man I would have ever considered, but hey... never say never. And certainly no gal would say no to a life in south france...

Ciow !

Hopes & Expectations

Yet another year has just flew by just like wind in that ruffles by through your hair.

Summing up 2008 in a mere few words would be hard for me. It has been A :
-great
-interesting
-adventurous
-bitter
-sad at times
-sucessful
-joyous
-challenging
-rewarding.......year

In many ways I'd always cherish the year 08 as I received my first university education.

Looking into 09, I have so many hopes and expectations for myself... Amongst them would be to save a litte, excel in my career either in pharma industry or taking on yet another degree, travel a little to somewhere in Asia ( India or Thailand), sponsor a child, and loose just about 10kg.

There is so much to look foward to and work on this year.

Jan 1st always marks a days of many goodbyes. Everywhere around the world I know people who are parting and returning back to their daily routines. Hence, thats what keeps me going. Knowing I have to say goodbye to my family and not have mum's nice hot food waiting for me as I return from work, is quite sad. But nevertheless, I believe that when one holiday ends, you always look foward to the next.

I am indeed looking foward to going back home this year.At least i can say this year now :D
A big Christmas celebration for 2009 awaits me.

For now on I shall keep looking towards Dec 2009 .

ps :A big lesson i learnt in 2008 : i Shall Never Celebrate Christmas n New Year's in Melb again.. its festivity for the old folks.. like seriously comeon, I yawned 4 X during the fireworks.. so that pretty much sums it up !

What you got...

Oh man , colby's new single is fused to my neurons.. I cant seem to get this tune out of my head. Its such a catchy song, with lyrcis that.. uh hum reminds me of certain parts of myself.. hehe

Well it's worthy of a post..



Now don't blame me if its stuck in ur head :)

The One Who Shall Be Called the Graduate.

Yippie !!! 

Graduation day finally has come !!! 

And I have indeed graduated from Bachelor of Pharmacy wit Honours. 

Its been such an amazing journey; the education was great, but I believe the ordeals and challenges I faced and lived through was my biggest joy. People ask me, what was the easiest part of your degree... I have to say, it was the studying. The education was a breeze.. if you put in effort, you get the grades. 

However, the whole social aspect to my degree was tough. Living by myself, getting use to a new country and making new friends. Yesterday I felt as though, i did not only come out with a B.Pharm(Hons), but also equipped with the skills survive in this world. 

On another note, I have so many people to thank for contributing to my success. First of all, God who has never failed me.. Praise to the Lord !! 

I thank my mum and dad for being so supportive both financially and emotionally. My friends back home in Msia, who always make my homecomings such memorable ones and my friends in Australia who have given me great memories of uni life. 

There have been many professionals that I have met over my course, which have contributed a lot to my education. I so sincerely thank them for putting me on the right path. 

It's been a wonderful journey.. it will continue to be a wonderful journey.. 

Nothing is too hard  :) 

The one after the Great Silence..

Now that looks like a title taken straight out from FRIENDS...but hey I came up with it :)

Its been a month since Ive taken time to pen my thoughts down. This month has been fairly busy for me..

A quick summary of the reason happenings : (gees I sound like im writting a monthly report.. all the work in CSL is making me too cooporate like)
- First of all , my folks are down , and we've been having quite a blast. We took a trip to Sydney (my ultimate fav place).. ate like a zilliion types of food.. and just tried to soak in as much of Sydney's beauty as possible.. I visited Taronga Zoo yet again !!! for those who know me well, you'l knw how much I "love" animals.. hence, my 2nd visit to the zoo was such an incredible " pleasure".. I told myself, the next time I come here, i better be pushing a freaking stroller !!

- Then after holidays and all... results striked. I was very pleased to have done well in my bachelors. Getting an Honours degree has proven to be much tougher than I thought it be, but hey .. I did it !!

- So with a solid degree, comes the career world. I commenced work on Dec 1st as schedule. Did a bit of orientation at RCH before heading off to CSL. Now that I have had a taste of all 3.. hospital, community and industry.. I really can say that I enjoy industry and hospital very much . I feel more blessed to have been given this opportunity to experience both of this areas that I am very passionate about.

- To complete the summary of the month NOV/DEC 08.. i shall end it with a BANG! ..

THE GRADUATION

I have been waiting to call myself a graduate ever since I went to kinder.Tmrw when Im up there, receiving my honours scroll.. I know there will be a couple of things running through my mind...
I shall never forget the effort my mum and dad has put into me from a very young age.. I shall never forget the incredible teachers that I had along the way.. I shall never forget the friends that made memories with me throughout my education and taught me valuble lessons in life.
I believe, every milestone I undertook from a young child to completing my degree has been significant and in someway contributed to the person I am today.

It has been a great year.. ( from my point of view). Lots of ups.. and a fair share of downs too. I would sum up my academic 4 years in Melbourne as something truly unique, special and has made me the person I am today...

Adios..